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ABOUT JASMINE KAHLIA 


Jasmine Kahlia is a multidisciplinary artist that uses music, 
film, digital collage, zines, painting and poetry to bring ROAD 
CULTURE to the forefront. 


I'm not someone that likes commercial /media attention but i do 
want to highlight and destigmatise yung londoners experiences, 
breaking all the stereotypes and barriers along the way. 


| dont care about fame and money | wana be a respectful member 
of my community and do what i can to make yunga ppl thrive and 
survive in the face of so much inequality in london. 


| rmbr growin up with turkish kids chinese somali egyptian 
columbian english polish nigerian kids in my school in tottenham, 


didnt know abt no class system but that we were just lil 
‘underpriviliged’ hood kids 


we didnt know we had labels on our foreheads until we had to grow 
up and go out in the world 





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&& obviously u cudnt stop 


H OODRAT talkin abt my tits # 


| was jus thinkin abt recordin a song on ur computer 





. ) so | went along with it 
| was like 15 — wen | met u. so fuckin insecure ,, low self esteem g 


doing music production, wishin 4 a studio, gettin my tunes done WONG Weis DigO PI ap Eerie be i Teaany Metnshil 


ali just cheated on me with this bitch from myspace pee nn DUELS ppt ierent 


this guy that walked me home asked me if he could lick me out EE MOUSE Wao nae hac One TN Ine yclaiee praying 


| didnt want him t2 heartbroken 


so we went 2 burger king in camden and we rodet he 134 and u u undressed me and | 


said suppose | let u 
WOW U ARE SO PENG from where we are i can see the microphone 


| pulled away from u and asked if | cud record a song 


1 GANT BELIEVE UR NOT CONFIDENT 


pissed off u asked If | could evn rap or sing 
U SHUD B GAUSE ITS SEXY i think i was jus a pengting 2 mess wid 

oo for u 

Its Ironic 
u thought | didnt know how to produce 


cause If | had my shit together u wudnt look my way 


u thought | just knew how 2 fuck 
uU were like dat 


. | let udo what u wanted so i cud get my songs done 
u needed a poor gal like me 2 floss to 


give and take 
needed a sad gurl like me 2 worship u 


give and take 
but anyway i came 2 Cc u in archway 


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14, | walked outta school @ 3rd period and sat on the bus 
doing my eyeliner dark and gothic. 
My grandma call it ‘ginal eyes’ 
‘doh luk ‘pon me wid u ginal eyes’ 
i was wearing these cheap earrings from the chemist 
| called u - u left class to talk on the phone to me 
| was walkin along queens crescent 
uU said u can hear me smoking. 
it was sunny, | was thinkin abt fuckin u. i was still a yungting 
we'd been speakin 4 a year and u said u wanted 2 pop my cherry 
| didnt know wif that was 
u said we were defo ready 2 do it, the question was, where 
this gurl @ school lent me her pretty ricky aloummmmm 
i was listenin 2 it secret when i had a free yard 
u said where do u live again? 


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missin exams to fuck guys that will neva care 
losing grades u cuda got 
@ that house party 
juju rmbrs seein u fuck this skinny guy on the bathroom floor 
we still laugh abt it 
| just wanna say im so fkin sorry 4 wat nadia tried 2 do 2 u 
we tried to set U up 
in castlehaven 
we broke in2 ur House and tried 2 beat u up 
we called u a whore 
idk why 
that shits not none of my business # 
| dont think ur mum loved u 
| met ur dad and u didnt look like him 
who was jimmy 
does sex feel like love 4 u 


u deserved more 


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GIVE ME BACK MY FUCKIN PHUNE CAUSE WE DID A SWAP 
AND IM TIRED OF URS 
| Touk SOME TUPLESS Plies LAST WEEK AND NoW | RMBR 
THEY WERE IN THAT FoL_LDER 
U GBVIGUSLY FOUND THEM CAUSE EVERYONE IN THE ENDZ 
HAS SEEN MY TITS 
THEYVE HEARD MY RAPS EVEN THOUGH | NEVER SPAT 4 
THEM 


I KNOW U SHOWED THEM THE RECORDINGS AND THAT PHOTC. 


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THE BIGGEST VIGLATION IS THAT U TolLod ME 


NoW UR IN BRISTOL 


UR BIRMINGHAM 


UR WEST HAM 


BUT NOW UR NoT IN THE BITS To GIVE BACK MY PHONE 


GIVE ME BACK MY FUNE 


WHEN | FIND U | BET IM GUNNA HAVE Tu CHASE U ROUND 
THE WHoLE FUCKIN ESTATE 


JUST To GET MY FUCKIN PHUNE BACIC 


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The concept Is pretty basic 
Paper fire something to filter 
Something to smoke 
| was so fixated on what it wud feel like 
Watchin my uncles sneak off for one during my cousins birthdays 
Always comin back redded waved a lil diff 
They knew me as the gurl that was smoking tea 
| opened a packet of twinings lemon ginger and got aa lil rizla paper 
Lit it up and coughed out the most firey smoke 
ive ever experienced in my life 

This was b4 i Knew about googling something 

to find out what happens 1st 
The smellllllIIIIIII was nuts 
[now | dont recommend u try it yea unless ur stupid] 


| was chargin little year 9s £2 for me to roll them one of my special 
smokes 


Nipping to the offy to get more herbal tea fuck ID - 
fuck £1.50 4 a 10 pack mayfair 


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ur hair was like a halo 


big Golden afro on the spring mornings 


it was like u shined so bright 


u neva used 2 turn up 4 school, 


| think | Saw u Once, twice a week 


| used to wait in assembly 


hopin u wud turn up late 


u were mix race but | rmbr ur mum tellin u to say u were just white 


whenever u did come in u used to walk home with me. 


sometimes we would walk the railway line 


other days id get sweets from the cornershop and u'd say sweets 
were 4 kids 


-but iam a kid. 


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u were born in july 
u always had bruises, big bruises when u came in then | saw u when | was 17 
| asked u what u like 2 do on the weekends u were picking dog ends off of the floor 


u had a gold tooth and an empty look brown eyes red big afro gone 


u said i dont know if u finished school 
sleep till 12 and then watch porn u still had ur chipped teeth 
| only used to sleep until 9, mayb 10 on a sunday same childlike smile 
we were 10 years old how u been babygirl 


i was with another guy that was holding my hand 
i didnt really Know what porn was he was scared, jus edgin away from you 
u explained it to me — its like a woman with yellow hair that moves away from our childhoods together 


her tits around 
awy from how u looked man. 


i couldnt imagine it. — u mean a woman like miss brownlee or miss 
Williams? was it drugs 


Tndot did u get kicked out 
- why would they do that how do u know that wasteman he asked 
-| dont know, just watchin its funny 
that wasteman was my childhood crush 
| thought u was chattin shit. really thought u was chatting shit 
thats the kinda shit where u get taken away from ur parents 


if the school listens enough 


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Original artw¥rk below by jasmine kahlia WHY yuneas NEED SPacE 2 #aLK abt 
IMPact OF ROAD CULTURE ON UR LIFE 


its always been an unsaid thing on da roads 
don't talk about the antics to authorities 
don't hot up anyones name 
don't talk abt dis or dat 
hold dis 
hold dat 
hold it down 
hold it down hold it down 

we been holding down a lot of shit no lie 


the problem with seeing so much and holdin it down is that after a 
while it fucks u up. 


u see so many antics and hear about so much madshit 










that when u get older no one gives u space to get it out 


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(j you might not even b on too many movements but u might know 
how much an O costs. 






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you know the ways to get messages to ppl in jail. 
u might hve seen tools, 
u might have been asked to hold something. 
u defo saw that vid or heard dat story and now u cant not think abt it 
and the way it affects u . fam hold it down. 
you might not have even wanted to be exposed to these things or 
mayb u did 
but its so in your environment that even if u got that dream to get 
out of the ends you still end up seeing shit from the ends that end 
peoples futures and end ppls lives. alie 
why 
cant we talk about how that pressure fucks with u 
talk abt it in our own space 
where u can say as much or as little as you like 
without teachers or police man or xyz man writing on that notepad 
like its something to document, something to statisticalise, 
something that now becomes theirs. 


We just need those type of spaces to be allowed to talk 


we need to be noisy sometimes 


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we need to get out our anger in constructive ways 


sometimes we need to find new parents or siblings or friends or ppl 
that can guide us cause 


sometimes the ppl u grew up with can damage ur way of being 
we need to know about relationships 
we need to make our own slang that really reflects us as young ppl. 
no more rape n violence 


no more rape n violence references in our vocab neither u get me 
we are the ones firming this lexicon 


we need to find new ways to describe ourselves 
on the roadsides 
on the playgrounds 
on the buses 
on our fuckin ends 


we need to talk abt why we all live and exist so close together that 
we can feel the hot energy in the streets regardless and why people 
from areas that have BREATHING SPACE can lif their head up n 
get on with their lives. 


why are we all one 


and they all individuals? 


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